What makes me, me? I love a clean pool in summer, to jump in and close my eyes and forget about everything for as long as I can hold my breath. I love the feel of sunshine on my face. To feel a better future.
I love holding hands, no matter who with. Hold me tight.
I love long hugs. And I need reliability.
I am a swimmer at heart, love pink, The Beatles, and I’m forever a Daddy’s girl.
I have a difficult past, that I chose for myself. At some point, I accepted it. And denied any problem. And I lived my life with stress.
I write to let go. I need to relive my past and write it down, so I can move past it.
I’d like those willing, and brave enough to encourage me and give me the strength I need to get through this.
I have had good moments in my life as well. I just can’t seem to view them, all I keep seeing is my dirty past when I close my eyes or when I attempt sleep. I am a marijuana user. And that is the only way I can sleep without nightmares or feeling simply awful each morning. Marijuana has helped me get through a lot.